Thursday, May 30, 2024

Hilton Head Island: sex change; delayed; cost/benefit ratio; number of religions; the restaurant on the top of the world

I had a sex change yesterday.  Relatively painless.  Requiring only an hour at the DMV office to which Carol drove us.  She insisted on my getting my I.D. card corrected.  Killjoy.  I really would have liked to see if anyone ever noted the ‘F’ for female.  However I am again designed M.  Presumably for male, but maybe for mundane.


Later yesterday I received a telephone call from the surgeon’s receptionist stating that he has been taken ill, so I will not be repaired until June 7 at the earliest.  This is a serious disappointment.  I want to get this done and my life back.  Permit me a long sigh.



In CONQUERORS I read that Vasco da Gama’s first voyage to India resulted in a profit of sixty times its cost.  I also read that in the seven years from that first voyage in 1497 to 1504, of the 5,500 men who sailed to India, 1,800 died before returning to Portugal.  That is a death rate of 33%.


This morning In A LITTLE GAELIC KINGDOM I read of the Peacockes (sic), a family that ran a hotel carrying the family name for several generations in Connemara.  The Peacockes were Protestant in that overwhelmingly Catholic region.  I quote:  When a new Catholic Bishop came out from Galway to test.the local children’s preparedness for confirmation and asked ‘How many religions are there?’, he was puzzled by the answer he got:  ‘Two.  Our religion and the peacocks.’



I thank Larry for this link to ‘climbing’ Everest the not so hard way.  Yesterday was the 71st anniversary of when Hillary and Tenzing reached the summit after a somewhat different experience.

https://dnyuz.com/2024/05/25/spa-sushi-posh-digs-the-bougiest-way-to-climb-everest/

The logical progression is obvious.  Soon an entrepreneur will build a helipad 100’/30 meters below the summit.  If you can helicopter to base camp and avoid weeks of dreary walking—and walking is so last century, why not fly near the summit and avoid all that tedious climbing too?  Not to mention having to stand in line.  Having deplaned, the wealthy ‘climber’ would have access to an escalator to carry him the final few feet to the summit where there will be a revolving restaurant where he can enjoy the view, dine in style and sip champagne while taking a selfie to celebrate his ‘conquering’ Everest.


Tuesday, May 28, 2024

Hilton Head Island: sex on the deck; ship’s weasel; unleaked; repair

Calm down.  Not me and Carol,  Anoles, of which I have written here before.  Very small gecko-like lizards.

The weather in the marsh has been similar to South Florida for the past few days.  Sunny mornings; thunderstorms in the afternoons.  Requiring me to cover and uncover our deck furniture and bring in cushions from the chairs on the porch.

Yesterday morning was again sunny and with a ten knot breeze quite pleasant on the deck, so I took my uncooked oatmeal out there.  I found the corner in front of our deck chairs already occupied by a brownish female anole.  How I know she was female will soon be revealed.

She was motionless to the point I wondered if she were dead, until I saw slight movement of her head.

In a few minutes she was joined by a second anole.  This one slightly larger than she and bright green.  He moved to within about two anole lengths of her and after a while raised his head and puffed up his throat like an orange ballon.  Ballon deflated.  Then soon repeatedly inflated and deflated.  Clearly a mating ritual designed to impress.  Whether the female was I am uncertain.

After this went on for a while, he made his move circuitously, slithering to the metal deck railing, climbing up and then along it until he was a few inches above and beside her.  Then a dash, resulting in an equally quick dash by her over the edge of the deck, following by him in what could only be considered hot pursuit.

I assumed that was all I would ever know of this lascivity, but after a few minutes he climbed back onto the deck and stopped.  Perhaps in satiated rest.  Perhaps in disappointment.  A few seconds later her head appeared above the edge of the deck and she gazed at him coyly.  And then a bird flew overhead and they both vanished down the side of the building.


I knew that in the days of sail ships often carried cats on board to reduce the rat population, but in THE CONQUERORS, which is about the unparalleled thirty year explosion of the Portuguese maritime empire beginning with the voyage of Vasco da Gama and which I am now reading, I have learned that they also sometimes carried weasels for the same purpose.  The idea of a ship’s weasel appeals to me, though I don’t expect to share GANNET with one.  Or a rat.


Carol and I walked to GANNET yesterday before it got too hot and I went down below, plugged in a fan, closed up the cabin, and Carol extensively hosed down the deck over the port pipe berth where I have frequently been finding a puddle of water after rain.  I searched for drips and found none, re-enforcing my belief that there is no leak and that the water is coming in from the port side of the closed main hatch.  With the way I have gear stowed when GANNET is at dock she heels slightly to port.


I am scheduled to be repaired Friday.  However I had become tired of being inactive and so cautiously resumed my workouts last Friday.  I did not feel even a twinge and have continued to work out, both my standard and weight workouts.  I might as well build some muscle while I can because I expect that after the surgery I won’t be able to for a while.










Saturday, May 25, 2024

Hilton Head Island: downsizing; bored teen-agers; Slackport; last words

 



I have downsized to a GANNET size computer.  You see it above, an 11” M4 iPad Pro next to my 13” MacBook Air.

There are several changes to this new design.  The M4 chip is Apple’s most powerful, far more than needed by almost all of us, including me.  So much so that the Ars Technica review of the new iPad Pros is headed ‘Well, Now You Are Just Showing Off’ addressed to Apple.  The new iPad Pros have a new display said by reviewers to be the best display on any consumer device and it is indeed impressive.  The new Pros are incredibly thin and light, which is important to me.  And I was most tempted by the new keyboard accessory described as exceptional by all the reviews I read.  My main computer was once a 12” MacBook with which I was quite happy and I thought if I could type comfortably on that and if this keyboard is as good as claimed, I can type on it.  It is and I can.

I have had the new iPad since Tuesday and am writing this post on it, as I have the past two.  It is also serving as my e-reader, so is replacing two devices—a 12.9” iPad Pro and an iPad mini.  There are a few activities I cannot perform on iPads, so I still have the Air, but now this small device is my main computer.

Setting up the new iPad and transferring data from the old 12.9” iPad Pro took a while.  In doing so I was pleased that all my iSailor charts transferred.  None of my iNavX charts did.  I do not know what iNavX’s current policy is, but the last time I checked they still permitted only two downloads per purchase and you had to buy a different set of charts for iPad and iPhone.  I deleted iNavX from the new device and decided to add to my charts in iSailor. I now have complete coverage of the Southern Hemisphere—make of that what you will—on four devices:  iPad Pro 12.9”; iPad mini; iPhone 12 Pro; and 11” iPad Pro.   Unless war breaks out and nations destroy one another’s GPS satellites, that should be enough, and if they do I have a sextant and know how to use it.


I accept the hazards of sailing small boats across oceans alone, but bored teen-agers ought not to be among them.  Good grief!  

https://www.usatoday.com/story/news/nation/2024/05/24/killer-whales-attacking-sinking-boats-are-bored-scientists-say/73558157007/



This morning I finished THE LAST POOL OF DARKNESS, The second volume in Tim Robinson’s wonderful Connemara trilogy.  I will start the third, A LITTLE GAELIC KINGDOM, tomorrow, and have already ordered his two books about the Aran Islands.  His writing and his books are a very great pleasure.

In the final chapter he offers the possible source of the name of Slackport.  “The local origin myth is that some sailors came ashore here once and enquired for the pub; when they learned it is five miles away in Ballyconneely they said, “Well, this is a very slack port!’

And the last words in the book are:  ‘two hints that it is time to throw my book away, a paper boat adrift on the unknown waters of other people’s minds, unballasted with summation or conclusion.’





Thursday, May 23, 2024

Hilton Head Island: two poems by Richard Murphy and one by me

This morning I read several poems by the Irish poet Richard Murphy whom I mentioned yesterday.

Some of the facts about his life are difficult to discover.  He was born in 1927 and died in 2018.  He was married at least once.  Possibly twice but I am not certain.  He had two children.  ‘Grounds’ is about his first and perhaps only divorce.

Here is a poem I wrote about one of my divorces,



Galway Hookers are not my kind of boat, but I like the poem and believe some of you will too.











Wednesday, May 22, 2024

Hilton Head Island: confused; surviving the perfect storm; the purpose of writing

I am confused.

By chance yesterday afternoon I discovered that my official South Carolina I.D. card lists my sex as “F’.  I accept life’s uncertainties, but I never expected to turn into an ugly old woman with a mustache.

The ID card is good for eight years which is probably longer than I am.

We may go back to the DMV office in Bluffton and sort out what I hope is a clerical error, but I am inclined not to.  The printing on the card is small and I doubt anyone will ever check beyond name, photo, and perhaps signature.  The card has already been twice accepted as identification.  Conducting the experiment is tempting.


Sunday Carol noticed that the film, THE PERFECT STORM, was being telecast, so we watched.  We had both seen the film before and I have read the book.

You may recall that in addition to the fishing vessel that is the primary focus, the film and book both follow a sailboat also caught in the storm.  The boat was a Westsail 32.  A sister ship is shown in the film.  On board were the owner of unknown experience and two women without any sailing experience heading from New England to Bermuda.  Why they were trying to do so in October I do not know.  I would have waited until later in the year.

When they encountered the storm, the inexperienced women panicked and one of them got on the radio and sent out a distress call to which the Coast Guard responded.  Once the Coast Guard is present they have the power to order everyone off a vessel, which they did.  The women went gladly.   The owner wanted to stay with his boat but was not permitted to.

What is not mentioned in the film is that his boat survived, eventually being blown onto the New Jersey shore.


In THE LAST POOL OF DARKNESS Tim Robinson introduced me to the Irish poet, Richard Murphy, of whom regrettably I had not known.  Murphy liked to sail and lived alone for several years on High Island just off the Connemara coast.  I have bought a kindle edition of his collected works, THE PLEASURE GROUND:  POEMS 1952-2012.  After finishing with Wilfred Owen I began it and thus far have enjoyed and been impressed by the poems.

I also very much like the epigraph at the beginning from Samuel Johnson: 

The only end of writing is to enable readers to better enjoy life, or better to endure it.



 

Monday, May 20, 2024

Hilton Head Island: hurricane preparation month and worlds visited

If you live on this coast you probably already know that May is hurricane preparation month.  The National Hurricane Center site states that the Atlantic Hurricane Season runs from June 1 to November 30.  Hurricanes that appear outside those dates are heavily fined.

This season will be different because Carol is here.  In the past I had no way to evacuate myself and no intention of doing so no matter what storm was approaching.  There is a number to call for those without transportation, but spending days living in a high school gymnasium with several hundred of my closest friends has slight appeal.  Assuming I survived the storm’s passing, I was provisioned and prepared to be self-sustaining for at least two months.  Now evacuation is possible.  If an evacuation order is issued, I would want Carol to evacuate, but it is unlikely I would go with her.  As some of you know I have been in hurricane force winds at sea at least eight times.  I have never been in such winds on land.  GANNET has, surviving on the hard Irma that hit the Florida Keys in 2017.  Our condo is on the landward side of the island and less exposed than waterfront property facing the ocean.  The problem is rapid intensification, such as that of the storm which struck Acapulco last year, strengthening from a tropical storm to a Category 5 in a few hours.

I am not at this instant fully provisioned, but I soon will be.  Oatmeal, trail mix, powered milk all last and are eaten after the season ends and I still have two months of freeze dry meals.

I expect that what I will do will be decided at the time.


I remain on hold.  Tomorrow I have a preliminary appointment with the surgeon.  Not wanting to risk making the hernia worse I have not been working out and I am restless.  I will be very glad to be repaired.

What I have been doing is reading even more than usual.

Each month I visit the Second French Empire through a novel of Emile Zola.  This month’s was the seventh in his Rougon—Macquart series, L’ASSOMMOIR, sometimes translated as THE DRAM SHOP, a vivid depiction of the decline through alcohol to destitution, madness and death.  It was the novel that made Zola famous and is enough to cause one to stop drinking, which I did.  For two days.  As you may recall this was not a hardship because for several months Carol and I have refrained from drinking on Tuesdays and Wednesdays.  By Thursday I had recovered sufficiently from reading the novel to have a martini.  Or two.

Also each month I visit Nineteenth Century Brazil through the short stories of Machado de Assis.  I have a kindle edition of his complete short stories.  He published seven volumes of them and I read one volume a month.  Three more to go.

At present each morning I visit China of the Tang period, 618-907 A.D., though its poems, the trenches of the Western Front of the First World War though the devastating poems of Wilfred Owen, and the Connemara, Ireland of Tim Robinson.  And I am also at present with Theodore Roosevelt in the South Dakota badlands recovering from the almost simultaneous deaths of his mother and his young wife.

Today is a lovely day in the marsh, after a front passed through yesterday.  Sunny, 76F/24C, with a moderate breeze.  Carol and I will have drinks on the deck.  I will raise my glass to words.








Wednesday, May 15, 2024

Hilton Head Island: evening

I am sitting again by our bedroom window looking out at Skull Creek and the sun lowering over Pickney Island.  A small glass of Plymouth gin is on the teak table before me.  ‘Seven Days Waiting’ by Ludovico Einaudi on my AirPod Pros so I won’t disturb Carol who is nearby sneezing.

We were away for three days, visiting Carol’s family and an old friend of mine.  All good people, but I am so glad to be back in the marsh, in my own space and beauty.

I am at peace.  How rare.  How welcome.

I am on schedule.  Two and a half years before I go beyond the edge again if time and chance do not destroy or weaken me too much before then.

I have written that the secret to my success, such as it has been, is that I do so little.  So I am planning years in advance.  Yet, immodestly, doing so little, I have accomplished a lot, at sea, with words, and with lust and love.

It is good.  I am old and I am still doing what I ought to do and enjoying beauty and Carol’s love.  I started to say ‘along the way’, but that is wrong.  The beauty and Carol’s love are ends in themselves.

If you know much of my life—and it is there in words and videos—you know I have known great joy and great despair.  The despair has often almost killed me.  The joy prevails.

So I lift my almost empty glass, which I will refill, to life and to you if you have been here a while.  I don’t often check numbers of readers, and I will do what I believe I ought to do even if no one else ever knows, but as I have written and understand, every work of art is an attempt at communication, and I am glad that at least of few of you are there for me to communicate to.




Saturday, May 11, 2024

Hilton Head Island: grounded; the old Ulysses; amnesiac

 


The sun is setting behind Pickney Island after a glorious day in the marsh.

The front that passed yesterday left drier and cooler air behind.

Carol and I walked a couple of miles beside Port Royal Sound and saw dolphins and a bald eagle, a big and impressive bird and the first I have seen on the island.

I biked down to GANNET in mid-afternoon.  Carol is driving us to North Carolina tomorrow for a few days to visit her family and I wanted to see if much rain had made its way below.  It had not. 

I enjoyed being on the little boat.  I want—I need—to go sailing, but that is not going to happen soon.  I hesitated before writing in the last entry about my hernia.  Unlike many, particularly the young who think that they must share everything in order to obtain illusory validity from others, I don’t have any desire to share everything.  I make a determined effort that what I write is as true as I can write, but I know truths I do not share, and I only wrote about the hernia because I have not sailed for months and legitimately some might start to wonder if the old man has given up.  I have not.  I can hardly express how much I wish I were at this moment hundreds of miles offshore.

If I remember correctly Tennyson wrote his ‘Ulysses’ when he was young.  It is a great poem and a great feat of imagination.  He captured an aged spirt that accepted he was not what once he was but could still strive.

Here is the end of the poem.

I suggest that even Tennyson never imagined a Ulysses in his 80s. 



And here is a photo I saw this morning of those who have paid $50,000 to $100,000 to stand in line to summit Everest.  Think what you will.  For myself I do not like to stand in lines.






Tim Robinson wrote:  Time is the great amnesiac.

I have written that life is redeemed by moments of joy.

Seek those moments.

L’Chaim

Friday, May 10, 2024

Hilton Head Island : hors de combat or the perils of moving

A dark and stormy night morning in the marsh.  Rain, lightning, thunder, and a tornado watch.

Carol and I have been solving problems sequentially as is our custom.  All of the stuff we brought with us has been stowed and we have been dealing with bureaucracies Federal and state, but this has caused me to neglect GANNET now for more than two months.  I had planned to spend more time with her next week, but that is not going to happen.  During the move from Carol’s apartment I did some heavy and awkward lifting which as I learned yesterday has resulted in a hernia that will require surgical repair.  I do not yet know when this will be done and it may even not require hospitalization.  The hernia itself is not painful, but left untreated could become worse which might be unpleasant at sea a month or two away from medical care.

Also yesterday we officially became South Carolinians.  

Carol drove us to the SCDMV office in Bluffton where she got a South Carolina driver’s license and I got an I.D. card and we both registered to vote.  

One man, one vote sounds good, but it doesn’t actually work that way.  Under our vestigial and absurd Electoral College system our votes will be as meaningless in South Carolina as they would have been in Illinois.  South Carolina’s delegates to the so-called college will vote for the Republican candidate.  Illinois’s for the Democratic.  And the election will be decided elsewhere with the winner possibly being the man with the fewer votes cast by the public nationwide. 

We’ll vote anyway.



Tuesday, May 7, 2024

Hilton Head Island: HENNING;; GANNET; the hard road

 


Above is HENNING, a 10’ Bahamian dinghy a year or two older than I.  She is the latest addition to Kent and Audrey’s ever expanding Armada.  At least I think she is the latest addition.  It is hard to keep up.

Kent and Audrey have diligently removed her aged paint and fiberglass sheathing and wanted to see how the wood would swell, so they launched her in the kiddie pool.






I thank them for permission to share the photos and  look forward to seeing HENNING under sail on longer voyages.

You can follow further at:

http://smallboatrestoration.blogspot.com/



I have been down to GANNET several times since our return to the marsh.  I found her in good condition.  Not even any bird droppings on the deck, although there was water on the port pipe berth.  I have noted this before and hope it is coming in around the closed companionway during rain storms, but cannot be certain.

The little boat needs some cosmetic work and anti-fouling.  I have delayed the latter by paying a diver to clean the bottom from time to time.

We are still settling in after this final move to the condo and taking up sequentially the many tasks of establishing ourselves as permanent South Carolinians.  Carol is proving that retiring is hard work.  So I’m not going to.  

Thus far the bamboo plant is doing well.



From 300 TANG POEMS:









Wednesday, May 1, 2024

Hilton Head Island: no where in particular

I am sitting on the screened porch Wednesday morning sipping coffee.  Sunny. Calm.  Skull Creek glassy.  70F/21C.  Lovely.  An about 40’ sloop is powering north past the marina.  Probably a snowbirder heading back after a winter in Florida.

Here is ‘No Where In Particular’, the only article I wrote for publication last year.  It appeared a couple of months ago in SAIL.  That version was somewhat edited.  Here it is as I originally wrote it.


I woke at 5:30 Friday morning to the sound of rain on the deck.  I was on the port pipe berth of my Moore 24, GANNET.  GANNET was anchored in 60’ of water thirteen miles off South Carolina’s Hilton Head Island where I live.  

We had anchored under a full moon in dying wind at 9:30 the previous night.  My ePropulsion electric outboard does not have thirteen mile range and we weren’t going to get into Port Royal Sound at the north end of the island unless I was willing to stay awake all night, which I wasn’t.  The barometer was high, the sky clear.  I judged correctly that nothing serious would happen that night and so dropped the ten pound Spade over the bow.  All chain rodes are best, but ultralight GANNET cannot carry that weight.  Only the first 20’ of her rode is ¼” chain, the rest is ½“ braided nylon which enables me to anchor the little boat in deeper water than I have preferred, in the past.

I slept relatively well.  We rolled for a while on a low swell, then the ocean went flat, then we begin rolling again the last hour or two before I fully woke.  

I untied the lee cloth and climbed from the pipe berth.  I had slept fully dressed in case something happened.  I turned on one of my solar lights and put on my foul weather gear and removed the companionway slat.  

I was beyond cell phone coverage, but I could get NOAA weather on my handheld VHF and learned that there was a small craft advisory for 20-25 knot winds and 5’ waves.  Under sail such conditions might be an inconvenience, but anchored thirteen miles offshore with no protection they were serious. 

In pre-dawn darkness I put on my headlamp and made my way to the foredeck.  I took a brush and bucket with a line attached and dipped it over the side for water, then sat down and began to haul in the 150’ of rode I had out.  This took a while, bringing in 10’ at a time, then holding the rode with my right hand while I flaked the line into its deployment bag with my left, but finally it was done.  The anchor came up clean as it always has around Hilton Head.

Anchor and deployment bag dropped through the forward hatch onto the v-berth, I went aft, unfurled the jib, set the tiller pilot, and we began to sail almost silently toward the buoy two miles away marking the outer end of the channel into Port Royal Sound.



I had pushed GANNET from her slip at 1:00 PM the preceding Saturday.  Headed by a light northwest wind, we powered slowly around the long curve of Skull Creek, which is part of the IntraCoastal, 1.8 miles to Port Royal Sound, where I cut the outboard and we sailed under jib alone until 3:00 when I anchored.

The ePropulsion is my third electric outboard.  My first two were Torqeedos.  I changed because of the possibility of greater range.  The ePropulsion has a bigger battery and what is called hydrogeneration.  Leave the prop spinning in the water while sailing and at about 4 knots it starts recharging the battery.  I was concerned about the noise this might make, but the prop is remarkably quiet.  However it is also remarkably slow, increasing the charge at only about 1% per hour.  The prospect of dragging a prop for several hundred miles did not appeal, so after anchoring I removed the outboard and bracket from the stern and took the battery down below to charge off the ship’s batteries, and then went back up on deck to listen to some music and enjoy a drink and a spectacular sunset.

I had a quiet night, woke at first light, and had the anchor up at 8.  As the anchor came off the bottom the outgoing tide turned GANNET’s bow and I had only to unfurl the jib and engage the tiller pilot for us to be making five tide assisted knots down the sound.  Soon with an increase of the wind to 18 knots on the beam, we were making 8 knots.  On a relatively cool 51º morning for South Carolina, I was wearing Levis and a Polartec.

We were heading offshore with no destination.  

The plan was to put the wind on or aft of the beam and have several days of good sailing no matter our course, then turn and work our way back.  That’s not what happened, but it was the plan.

GANNET only draws 4’1”, but shoals that can be a concern even for her extend a long way offshore from Hilton Head Island, so we sailed not far outside the buoys marking the channel for almost two hours as the wind backed and increased to twenty knots.  The waves increased too as we moved away from the land and began to slam into our port quarter.  Concerned that they might drown the tiller pilot, I partially furled the jib and set up the port running backstay.

You have to go a long way out to get clear of this part of the coast.

An hour later we passed through a line of five ships anchored waiting to enter Savannah Harbor.  Still beyond them were scattered buoys, some marking fishing havens, some belonging to the Navy, and eight isolated Navy towers, some as much as fifty miles offshore, but we were clear enough so that I was able to go below, move the anchor and rode bag to the bow and rearrange other stowage.  

Before leaving the slip I had reconfigured the interior into sailing mode.  In harbor mode I sleep on the starboard side of the v-berth.  In sailing mode, the v-berth is used for stowage and I sleep on whichever is the windward pipe berth.

Wind and waves increased throughout what became a rough, hang on day.  More and more slammed into and over us.  They were only 5’ or 6’, but they were steep and close together.  Wind against Gulf Stream.

In late afternoon GANNET was drawn toward one of the Navy towers as if to a magnet.  I had to disengage the tiller pilot and hand steer to get us around it.

We were rolling so much that I spilled water pouring it into the JetBoil to heat for freeze dry chicken and dumplings.  A gin and tonic spilled before I had my first sip.  And a wave came down below to add salt to my meal, my Levis, and a glass of boxed red wine.

Then at 8:00 the wind abruptly died and we rolled becalmed through a miserable night.  For a while the jib collapsed and filled fifteen or twenty times a minute, so I furled it and let us drift.  I was up many times looking for a nearby Navy tower and did not get much sleep.  This was not the vision I had.

Dawn found us drifting north at one knot.  At 8:00 a light wind filled in from the north, so I unfurled the jib and raised the main and GANNET began to make three knots southeast.

At noon I routinely record our position, day’s run, and barometric pressure.  At noon that day we were 42 miles from our noon position the day before, but there was no point in considering a day’s run because we had changed course so often, southeast, south, west, north, east and now southeast again.

I had fit a new stern light that morning.  My masthead tricolor/anchor light has stopped operating, and though I like living on Hilton Head Island very much—our condo looks out on serenity and beauty:  live oaks and Spanish moss; Palmetto palms; spartina; the marina where I can see GANNET’s mast five hundred feet away; the changing light on Skull Creek—it is the most difficult place I have ever kept a boat on which to get work done, so I was using the deck nav lights and found the stern light too bright, ruining my night vision whenever I stuck my head out.  I fit a seemingly well made multi-purpose NaviSafe light, which can be configured as an anchor light, a steaming light, or a stern light.  It fits into GoPro mounts, of which I have many.  I tried attaching one to the deck near the stern with its own adhesive, which did not hold adequately, so I SuperGlued it and attached a cord to the light in case it came free.

By midafternoon I passed the last Navy buoy and was more than fifty miles offshore and seemed to have the ocean to myself.  I have written about entering the monastery of the sea.  I hadn’t, but I felt a sense of space and openness and simplicity that I never do on land.  

With GANNET sailing smoothly on a beam reach at six knots I was able to spend time on deck.  Sunset found me sipping an air temperature gin and tonic and listening to music.  This was the vision I had.  It lasted too briefly.

We sailed well until 4 A.M. when I woke because GANNET was moving too fast for the tiller pilot to keep up.  We were making 9 knots.  GANNET can do more if I want to hand steer.  I didn’t and stood in the companionway and deeply furled the jib.

After that I did not expect I would fall back to sleep, but I did, finally waking for good at 6:30.

Another rough, rolly day of GANNET following 20+ knot veering wind across a dark blue white-capped ocean beneath a hazy blue sky.

I spent most of the day below deck, reading at what is called Central, sitting on a Sport-a-Seat on the cabin sole, facing aft from the main bulkhead, rising from time to time to check and change course.

That evening I found myself wondering if sailing to no where can be enough.  If I stayed out a month would that be enough?  Enough for what?  I did not know.  But I knew there is an 81 year old man who is still wondering what he ought to do, what he wants to do, rather than merely wait for time and chance to end him.  And I knew that it was good to be out there.  Just me and GANNET and the ocean.   I was where I wanted to be.

The next morning, Wednesday, the wind decided that I had been there long enough by continuing to veer until it was south of east.  If we continued reaching we would close the coast of Florida.  I did not want to do that.  Instead I gybed and we turned back a day early toward Port Royal Sound 160 miles away.

From below, looking out the main hatch, I could see the ocean streaming past, sometimes blue, sometimes foaming white.  It looked as it had hundreds of times during GANNET’s circumnavigation, but I knew it wasn’t, and somehow that mattered.

Just before sunset I went on deck to turn on the stern light.  A wave came.  GANNET lurched.  I got a gash on my head from the backstay and my leg from the cockpit coaming.  I already had a gash on my left arm and two more on my head.  I need a carbon fiber skull cap.  Sailing GANNET there will be blood.

We re-entered the Gulf Stream Thursday.

Checking our GPS position in the iSailor app I found our COG was 30º to 40º north of our compass heading.  I set course farther off the wind to compensate.  I did not want to end up off Charleston and have to beat back.

By noon we were no longer being set north and the wind eased.  Under full main and jib we had fine sailing, making an easy 6 and 7 knots.  I sat on deck and listened to music,  No drink for me that evening other than a 0% alcohol Heineken.

At sunset the lights of seven anchored ships were ahead of us.  As we passed between them I considered the men on board them and how different their experience of the ocean is from mine.

In diminishing wind GANNET gradually slowed and at 9:30 I anchored.



The sky was solid low overcast in shades of gray and black.

A few minutes after the outer buoy marking the entrance channel came into view, another line of rain reached us and the wind continued to veer.

We crossed the channel and set our course just outside the line of green buoys.   Although GANNET was dashing along at 8 and 9 knots and the slip was only seventeen miles away I was not certain we would get in that day.  The little boat is light and underpowered and easily moved by wind and tide.  I wanted a hot shower and later a cold drink, but if the wind went much above 20 knots, I would not approach the marina. We would anchor in Port Royal Sound until the front passed.

The channel doglegs to the northwest as it enters the sound.  The water smoothed as we made that turn.

Half way up the sound I lowered the main.  Our speed only dropped to 7 knots.

The ePropulsion should have a range of more than seven miles, but I have found that sometimes it doesn’t, so we sailed until the green marker at the mouth of Skull Creek was abeam before I furled the jib and turned on the outboard.  

There is an inverse ratio of speed to range with an electric outboard.  We had the first third of the outgoing tide and wind varying from 20 to 8 knots against us in the creek.  I tried to maintain an SOG of 2 knots, but saw speeds of less than 1 to more than 3.  I frequently leaned back to check the diminishing battery level.  

As we reached the apex of the curve in the creek I could set a course directly for the marina a half mile ahead.  With the outboard battery at 59% I knew we were going to make it and put out fenders and dock lines.  Until then there was always the possibility that we would have to anchor and recharge the battery.

The rain had paused while we were powering up the creek, but a dark line of clouds over Pickney Island to the west promised it would soon resume.  Two hundred yards from the marina I removed my foul weather gear and sea boots and put on boat shoes to be able to move more easily when I docked.  I hoped the rain would hold off for ten minutes.  In now more than eighty years I have come to understand that my hopes have no standing in the universe.  Just as I made the turn into A Dock heavy rain began to fall.  The air temperature was in the mid-60s, but it made me cold and worse made it difficult to see.

I most feel the Skull Creek tides in docking GANNET.  I like to dock at bare steerage way.  Yet slow too much and the tide   and wind move the boat in undesired directions.

We docked.

I got the dock lines in place and retired to what I call The Great Cabin.  On GANNET the distance between floorboards and overhead is 38”.

I sat at Central, listening to the rain patter on the deck.  I sipped bottled ice tea.  I made a FaceTime call to Carol.   I checked the barometer and found it had fallen 13 millibars in 14 hours.  That is a quick and deep fall.  I was surprised the weather was not more extreme.  

I considered the sail.  We had covered almost five hundred miles.  For a few moments I wondered if sailing without a destination had been a good idea and then I realized that it was.  We did not find the sailing I had hoped for, but in several years on this coast I have learned that here the wind comes from any direction and any strength and the only constant is change.  A sailor knows that whatever wind he has will not last.  Still old boats and old sailors need to be used and for a while GANNET and I were again together in our element.

I am pelagic.  I like to set out and not turn back.  Since the end of my sixth circumnavigation I have felt as though I am on a tether.

One evening during the first passage of GANNET’s circumnavigation, between San Diego and Hilo, Hawaii, I stood in the companionway as the little sloop ran west before the trades and thought, ‘Use yourself up old man.  Use yourself up.’  

That was nine years and more than 30,000 sea miles ago.  Yet at 81 I feel I am not yet Aused up.  Perhaps I deceive myself, but I think I can still do more.

When in an hour the rain eased, I walked home.